First Blog in awhile.

Hey whats up, So I have not blogged in a very long time and figured I would give it another go. I use to blog all the time, for no reason other than I like expressing how I feel about many things, even if no one reads about it. It gives me a peace of mind to just put my thoughts to a piece of paper(or shall I say, words to a blog page). Thats why I am here... no other reason then to just express how I feel about everyday things in my life. I will write about random subjects and I hope you enjoy. The first thing I will post is something I wrote about a year ago to try to understand why people are the way they are and how to still be confident in who I am without caring what people think of me, to take on the world with no regrets what so ever. Some people have read this and others haven't. It's something I am decently proud of if I do say so myself....

Let me enlighten you...

A time will come in your life where you suddenly realize no matter what you do, your days will always fit under the definition of pure chaos.

Every little thing you do, will always bother someone somewhere, so don't waste precious time trying to morph into someone else. All your "peers" will label you no matter how unique you may be, they will always find something to categorize you as.

You will grow up with friends, making more along the way, as you lose some.

You will go through pointless dramatic moments.

You will devote yourself to someone, and they will become a part of your soul, eventually they will blindside you and leave you alone so sudden, you will feel like a ghost, barely in existance. The mere mention of their name will make you feel as if your organs are being ripped to shreds. Everytime you try to explain the feeling to someone, you can't. Though there is thousands of ways, you can't find the words.

Your hobbies, your clothes, your opinions,your mind will change too many times to count.

Your trust will be shattered time and time again until you finally realize you can never depend on another human but yourself.

You will be engulfed with dissapointment in people you had so much faith in.

You will be weak.

But... trust me, all you need is an ounce of hope to grow into something so much bigger.

You will begin a journey to self-discovery.

You'll spend your nights wondering why certain things happened to you, and eventually you'll drown in self pity. 

Whether you want to admit it or not. 

Working your heart raw everyday, to make your life appear easy or close to "perfection".

Everyday you will feel your mind open up, and metamorphosis  into  something viciously  beautiful.

You will BEGIN your life.

I assure you, when you get there, 

you will realize it was all worth it.

The worst days of your life will become the best, in a way.

The past can only hurt you if you let it. 

No excuses,no regrets.

Just you, and a world full of opportunity.

Envision the world 

 with wisdom and  give your subconscious mind the space to expand and explore.

Remember all the words you just read, let them process in your mind, and find that ounce of hope,so you can...

Awaken your life.

&

Begin your future

-AmberG