Stop Stuttering..

So a funny story for the day... It was about 15mins til I was about to get off work and I went to the breakroom to get my soda from the fridge and I saw a girl in a car just waiting outside and didn't think anything of it, so I went back to my department, well here comes 3:00pm and I clock out and walk outside and all of a sudden this same girl comes up to me and says she did not know her boyfriend worked with a female and FLIPPED out on me saying I better never touch her man or she will kick my ass..... needless to say I have NO idea who she was or who the hell her boyfriend even was lol. I just looked at her with this confused look on my face(i'm assuming) and just started busting out laughing. I gave her this what the F**K are you talking about look and said "I'm a huge homo, you nor your man EVER have a chance with me...."..... yup that was MY day.  I have no idea how people could date people like this. Is there no such thing as trust in the world anymore.. Pretty sure If I was dating someone and said to them, "you can't work with other females", I would be single for the rest of my life.lol I have also came to the realization that the mexicans at my work make this food that smells AMAZING. That is all I have for you.

p.s. My girlfriend is pretty much the best EVER.

Speed of Sound.

So I met a new guy at work today and I BELIEVE his name is Ricardo. I want to take the time out and just say I am very happy I met this man today, he is a very nice gentleman and extremely sweet. First he asked what my name was and then introduced himself and followed to apologize for his speech because he got hit by a drunk driver. He had a prosthetic leg, a broke shoulder, and a strong slur to his words, yet he had the most positive attitude I have ever seen anyone have. It made me sit back and think about how I complain about the smallest things in life,(I don't have this or can't do that), yet here is a man who came SO close to losing his life and has to deal with struggles for the rest of his life, because someone made the choice to have a few drinks and drive rather than call a cab or stay somewhere, have such a positive outlook on life. I am thankful I have what I do and need to learn to never take anything in life for granted because It can disappear in a flash. So rather I see this man again or not, for just a slight second of meeting he impacted my life and made me appreciate what I have in my world. Even the smallest seconds of meeting a stranger can have an impact, so be nice to those you don't know, they could turn out to be amazing people.

Are you gonna kiss me or not....

Sorry I have not posted in a few days. This amazing girl decided to surprise me this weekend and stay with me. I just want to tell the world, how amazing she is. There is no words to describe how incredible she really is. She makes me smile just by saying hey, She inspires me to want to be a better person and pursue life like I never have before. She has done so much already and it is breathtaking. Her smile is radiant and I can not help but just tell her how beautiful she is, inside and out. I have been hurt many times in my past as we all have and I have been scared to even remotely allow myself to be this close to someone in sometime, so I stopped trying to look for a relationship or even stopped caring. Through this I have learned I can totally be alright on my own and be happy and for the first time I am truely happy with my life. It is true what they say, stop looking and someone amazing pops into your life and that still holds true to me, with a simple question from one of our friends" Are you a top or a bottom(haha), I met this incredible woman. Having her close to me makes me feel safe like no other and It is the best feeling in the world waking up with her next to me. There will be struggles and obstacles, but it is nice to know I have found someone who is willing to work at it WITH me, just as much as I am. I have been hearing a lot of "What about the little distance?".. My opinion has always been there is MILLIONS of people in this world, who says your heart ends up with someone in the same town.... you can cross paths with someone when you go out of town and they could change your life forever.  There is so many ways to meet people in this world, you just have to be willing to work out at and never be afraid. Stay positive and look at the bright side of things, instead of those that could bring you down. With that said, I won't be scared to go after someone that makes me this happy and all you can do it try... I once heard someone say...Rather you think that you can or can't..your right...

p.s. You are amazing baby.

My hands, they were strong, but my knees were far too weak To stand in your arms without falling to your feet

First off, I have to say music is amazing. It eases the pain as well as make it worse . The best thing you need after a breakup. They always says that the heartbreak is always easier the second time around, well whoever "They" are can go fuck themselves, because they have no clue. Its amazing what a few words coming from someone's mouth can do to a person's soul. "Im leaving". Thats all it takes for your world to be flipped upside down in every which way. It may take hours but once it hits you that it is really happening you don't know what to do with yourself. You try to stay busy with whatever you can find, but its no use. The memories always creep up on you and outta no where. You stay up hours on end just so you can pass out later with no worries of dreams. There is nothing worse than having to think about everything WHILE you sleep as well. For me, The first time this happened I cried for hours and remembered everything I could so I would never lose a memory of this person. The second time its worse, It feels like you don't have any soul. Youpretend to smile just because its makes everyone at ease and I don't wanna bring them down along with me. You don't eat, you can't sleep. You just sit there in your body constantly reminding yourself just to breath. you have no emotion but feeling hurt, feeling regret everything that you seemed to fuck up. Worst, you feel numb. pretending to care what's going on around you, but its just a blur. I have a feeling no matter how many times you give your heart out to someone, it will never get easier. Nothing I write will ever truely matter, its just my way of letting out some sort of feeling I may have or have had. Will it ever be ok?. Who knows. I use to wonder why so many people just tend to not give a fuck anymore and maybe thats the answer. Everyone I talk to says just forget about it and forget relationships. How the hell can you just forget about it? You share your life with the person, you share your family, you make a new life with the person,yet you are just suppose to FORGET. There will never be an answer of how to deal with any of this, you will sometimes be lost for a long time.  "They" were right about one thing, you don't know what you have til you have lost it and the most fucked up thing is, those situations that you DO realize you lost the most amazing thing ever, you never get it back. "Hurr fucking ray" for morals and lessons in life. Life does get better though, you realize down the road, that they were not the person for you and everything does make sense. I have learned that sometimes this takes a very long time and even in the most hurtful situations you are thankfully everyday for that person, you realize you are stronger than ever and you take your past and apply it to who you are and what you have become. Take it with you everyday and be proud of what you have become and learn to be a better person day by day. Live, love, laugh...and forgive, they made you who you are... so to you.. I say Thank you.

10 things we do when we are drunk...

Have you ever noticed that when you are drunk, every idea that creeps into your cloudy, convoluted brain is the best idea you have ever had? With that in mind, I give you the top 10 things people are willing to do while drunk:

10. Drink more. It seems that the drunker we get, the lower our ability to recognize our "cut off" point. This seems to happen most frequently while playing Beer Pong or while someone else's wallet is open with the intention of buying shots.

9. Sing lyrics to complicated songs. Why do we think that we can sputter out the words to Sir Mix-A-Lot's "Baby Got Back" after we've tossed back five Red Bull and vodkas when we can't even do it after having five plain Red Bulls? Yeah...

8. Get in fights. This applies to both verbal and physical altercations. We always seem to think that we are the toughest mofo to ever work it when actually we are slurring our speech trying to insult our opponent. So we end up saying "You wanna say thaaa to ma face, bissshhh? I'll kick yaa-asss.....". And then we fall off our stilettos trying to gesticulate wildly in a demonstration of exactly how we are going to kick the bitch's ass.

7. Say ridiculously inappropriate things. This is pretty broad spectrum but it happens everytime because we always wake up the next day and go "What the f*ck did I say?". For example, you are at the family reunion and you've had a bottle of cabernet in an attempt to numb out the incessant questioning about when you are going to meet someone decent to marry. You then turn to your MOTHER and tell her that you haven't had sex in 517 days. Because hey, mom's cool like that, right?

6. Show overly exaggerated expressions of affection. Of course, everyone within arms reach wants to know not only that you love them, but exactly how much you love them.

"Man, I love you. No no no...you're not hearing me. I LOVE you. I F*CKING LOVE YOU, BRO!" Followed by the hand grab, chest bump, back pat, ass slap...whathaveyou. Repeat eight times before the night is over.

5. Smoke. smokers become chain smokers. We light one cigarette off of the end of the previous one while drunk. Non-smokers all of a sudden find it not only socially acceptable, but cool to pick up a nicotine habit. Not only that, but after spending most of their time lecturing us on reasons to quit smoking, they are now bumming cigarettes off of us. Both groups wake up wheezing and vowing never to smoke again. For the smokers, that vow lasts until 1pm.

4. Dance. When not drunk, there are people who are willing to dance and people who are not. When we are drunk, everyone is Michael Flatley: Lord of the Dance. We become a Bud Light clenching version of Napolean Dynamite. The non-dancers start to conquer a whole new area of life that was previously unavailable. As if they are spelunkers discovering a new diamond mine. The real dancers now have "dance offs" where the floor becomes a lame ass version of Michael Jackson's "Beat It" video. Without fail, someone cries because a drunk fool thinks that their three years of tap at Miss Molly's Dance Academy in Idaho qualifies them for a dance off in the middle of CroBar. End of dance off.

3. Make out with strangers. The beer goggles set in four beers ago. You are pondering why Stella Artois has been being brewed in the same tradition since 1366. You get nudged (or hipchecked) by the stool (or tool) next to you. They appear to resemble Angelina Jolie/George Clooney. The making out ensues. Twenty minutes later, one of you does the obligatory "I just need to go to the bathroom." Goodbye forever...

2. Eat unbelievably gross foods. Foods you would never eat, foods that are unacceptable for consumption, foods in revolting combinations. You stumble home after complete pollution and boy are the munchies calling to you. You dig through the cabinet and really don't feel like boiling pasta or baking cookies. So you prepare yourself a plate of enchiladas. Except that the enchiladas contain: olives, potato chips, lima beans, Hidden Valley Ranch dressing and a shredded Polly-O string cheese. Oh and since there are no tortillas in the kitchen, you substitute with slices of Canadian bacon. Buon appetito!

And the number one thing that everyone is willing to do when they are drunk....

1. DRUNK DIAL!!! It is an unspoken fact that our ex-lovers secretly are dying for us to call them at 4:00am and ramble incoherently into their voice mail. Everyone knows it. Seriously though, this is never a good idea. Regardless of your state of inebriation, never ever drunk dial an ex. It always results in booty calls that shouldn't happen or arguements over the fact that they still have your My Little Ponies in their basement. And friends don't let friends drink and dial. K?

This moment keeps on movin, we were never meant to hold on

This planet that we live on has been around for hundreds of millions... if not billions of years right? Humans have been around for.... lets see.... 15000 years tops? maybe 20000? even if it was 100,000 years... we haven't been around for a fraction of the time that the earth has, and on top of that, we have only really been keeping track of regular events like earthquakes and tsunami's for maybe the last 200 years tops? More specifically events wich take place in space in regards to super moons and magnetic fields, solar storms etc. have only seriously been looked into and recorded for at most the last 70 years....  who the hell are we to try and predict the end of the world? I am not a scientist but I think I can say that what is happening is nothing more then a natural cycle in wich this planet goes through and has gone through for years. The buildings we build, the earth we relocate, the garbage we produce, the humans and other species that reproduce; All of these things have a mass and have weight..... just like anything that spins, weather it be your tires on your car... a good golf ball, a turbine in a jet engine, It all has to be balanced to operate properly and without failure. When these things encounter unbalance they operate in ways that are not consistant with the perameters of their known normal daily function and will find ways to rebalance themselves... Think of how many people there are on this planet, all the oil we are pulling out of the ground and consuming, the water we are displacing with boats, and by filling empty oil wells(oil and water have different weights), as well as all the mining we are doing.... I do believe that Ms. Mother Nature is just trying to regain a sense of balance, and the only way it can do that is by the shifting of large masses that are moveable... and that I believe is the entire reason this planet is on tectonic plates, it's a self balancing system... and right now I think the world is very out of balance. These are all things we take for granted in life and don't think about, and even though these things are small  put them all together... thats quite a lot of weight needing to be redistrobuted.... If the world ends it ends.... that my friends is a sad cruel reality of life... but I don't think it will happen in terms of 2012.... The earth has survived far worse than what we have put it through and it is still here.... It's human nature to look for a reason for things to happen... and In My Opinion we are all looking too far into it in hopes that some big phenomenon is responsible for these events... its taken millions of years for the planet to balance itself so far...it could take many more years! You don't need science to figure that one out... just a little common sense and thought....

If we want hell, then hell is what we will have.

In time everyone dies...sometimes it's sooner than later unfortunately. So, for today I wish that people could take themselves out of their shoes and think about how or what they do or even how they act effects the people around them. Because you know what? One day they won't be there. Care for others before yourself, and others will miss you when you're gone. Life is too short to hold grudges, too short to be disrespectful, too short for petty jealousy, to short to not tell your closest friends and family that you love them for who they are. Life's too short to beat around the bush about anything. Be direct, but have tact. One day the person you could care for the most will be gone and perhaps you hadn't told them how much they mean to you. Or perhaps you let something get in the way of a friendship. Guess what? You can't say sorry to a corpse.
And also, beyond that, one day you'll die too. So, right now. Do what you want (within limits of course) live for yourself.Save money and go places, Find something you love and stick with it. Because, if you don't, as you lay dying you just might be thinking "Why didn't I do that? Why did I say that? Why didn't I say that?" And it'll be too late. Another  Resolution? Fight for your right to live.... Live Free or Die Hard, right?